Febuary 13

Its has been forever that ive written. i haven't gained any weight or lost any. i usually weight 121.. 120 the least. ive been eating like crazy though. my boyfriend is trying to make me gain weight cause he said he doesnt want me to be a size 0 or 1 and that i need to gain meat cause you can see my ribs, hipbones, collarbones , and back bones. I dont even feel skinnyyy. i have my good days. but even some days when the scale reads 123 i feel like a hippo. its just something i need to work on. i just wanna reach 115 and ill maintain that. and then ill see how i feel then.

ill post pictures and comment later

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peace and skinnyyy

october 10

i messeed up.

i have to get back on track.

starting tomorrow.

i work in the morning then im off to the beack with the boyfriend. he wants to take me out to dinner i always get a salad there with no dressing. but im gonna eat very little. then i have to start fasting agin. i would if i could tomorrow. but im only allowing that one meal.

i have to get back to the 110's before i leave. ill post my weight later. im to scared to weigh myself. so i leave in 16 days. the last 5 days im fasting.

Monday october 12 Fasting

Tuesday October 13 Fasting

Wednesday October 14 Fasting

Thursday October 15 Fasting

Friday October 16 300 calories

i really hope i dont have to edit it.

but i will have a busy week.

i dont even have a day off.

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October 7, 2008

hey girls. long time no update. i got caught. it was huge. my brother was worried went through my computer and saw all these pictures of me and so my parents went and pulled me out of work.. they cried they told me to stop they watched my eating for days. then i started again. and they broke my scale took my camera.

my lowest weight was 118. i started at 150 so it was a huge difference i hit a size 1. right now im at 124ish this morning i was. i binged today. my mom told me my legs are so skinny it looks like they are gonna break.

i want to get back to the 110's

i wanna stop at 110. i promise ill be happy. i still feel guilty when i eat. i still fast. i stil run like crazy. sometimes i wonder if i will ever stop. i have always said i could stop whenever i want but i think now thats a lie. i cant. i cant gain weight. i like being thin. i like people telling me im skinny. and no matter what though i feel fat. im going to mempis tennesse on october 27th so by then  at least want to be 115. i will be 115. tomorrow il start weigh in. im gonna fast for as long as i can with out my parents noticing so wish me luck =]

                                       me at 150ish

                                                     me at 119ish

                                                        me yesterday 124ish

Im off to comment girlies =]

hope all is well with you girls =]

July 24, 2008

FUCK.

so yesterday morning i weighed at 118.4... but then hurricane dolly hit Texas and decides to cut power. so it my sister and i and some friends at my house all day so all we do is pig out like LITERALLY!

i ate enough for like a week.

smores, chips, grapes, apples, bannanas, soup, pudding

need i say more.

so fasting today. not gonna weigh myself cause i might just wanna shoot myself and die.

i have to go to work right now so all i will allow will be coffffeee.

ill update later

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July 22, 2008

Sorry about not updating yesterday.

i had a bussy day. it was my friends birthday and i woker like all day. =[

Yesterday morning i weighed at 120.0 =]

that has been my lowest weight ever until this morning

118.6.. =]

today was suppose to be my 5th day fasting.. notice "was" i ended up eating a granola bar for breakfast at work causse people talk... this guy was like OMG ...wait camera.. can this be true your actually eating. then he said something that it looked like i was forcing myself to eat it.

then i got home and since there is a hurricane comming "dolly" i had to go grocery shopping with my mom and my sister.

i ate bannana chips and grapes.

it wasnt too bad but i did eat quite a few.

so i guess ill just see how it goes from there. i just pray that im still under 120. if not im back to fasting depending on my weight.

so yesterday i pierced my belly button and my ear the tragus. i already had one side pierced but i poerced the other now i just want my rook. =]

when i get to 115 ill get it.

i bought the cutest size 1 dress its a black halter. it fits a little tight from the chest but i still plan on losing more weight so it will fit better. =]

im off to comment.

ill update later.

PICTURES OF YESTERDAY 119ish

i hate the last pictureee.. taken 2 days ago. no belly ring... i still have a tummy...

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